While at the doctor’s office today a couple came in, they were older than me…LOL…the lady’s phone rang and I heard her talking to her daughter…I was trying not to ease drop but it was a small room so I had no choice.
She said, “Your dad is fine, nothing to worry about. We have two speeds, slow and stop…”
I laughed to myself…they were so cute…
And then I had an eye opener…
No matter how big we think our faith is…and no matter who we have praying for us…when you are faced with the possibility of receiving news of a terminal disease…it’s like you are holding your breath until it is confirmed one way or the other…
I have Faith in God…I know what he said is true…I’ve read story after story of how he heals and has healed me many times…and others I know he’s healed…why do we doubt?
Jesus asked Peter, “Why did you doubt me?”
I thought about this question a lot and in my heart and in my spirit I’d hear the Holy Spirit say, “You are not going to die now. You are going to be alright…” and I’d respond “I trust you God! You are my healer…and I thank you for my healing…”
And yet there’s that amazing relief when you hear the doctor say, it is not cancer…
Confirmation…relief and joy…
Why didn’t I feel that way before I got the news…?
Do we really believe God?
I had to repent…and say, “Jesus, I believe you, but help my unbelief.”
I believe he smiles and says, “It’s OK daughter, but go and sin no more! Your faith has made you whole!”
I also learned during this trial…that faith comes from the heart not your head…
Jesus wants our heart…
Search me O God and know my heart…
And he does…and what he finds there he reveals to us so that we can change…
His gift to me today, was life…but it is no different from any other day…He IS LIFE!!
And even when I die…I have His life!!!
But it sure is good to know that he’s not calling me home yet…
He is my deliverer and my healer…Jesus is, The Great Physician!!!
Child, have faith in me…trust me…I will never forsake you…don’t follow me for what you can get from me…follow me so that you can learn from me so you can know me…I will not lie to you…I will not abandon you…open your heart and you’ll see me, there, leading, guiding and directing your path.
When the road looks dark, and you feel alone…
When everyone seems to have deserted you…look full in my face and know I am right here with you…sing a new song of praise. I am closer than your heartbeat…keep your eyes on me not the circumstances…I love you ~~God
Let me add this today, for those who did receive the fatal news and you were told it is cancer…don’t give up, don’t despair…there is a reason for everything…Only God knows what it is…but I can tell you this from experience watching my mom bear that news with grace and hope in her God, even though she believed and had faith that he would heal her one way or the other…when it came time to accept what God had for her, she said, “I’m in your hands God…your will be done.” And God took her home. We are all going home one day…but how we live right now, with the time we have left, use it to glorify God…use it to encourage and strengthen others who may not be as strong in their faith…God bless you and give you grace every step of the way…take heart little one…Jesus is with you right now and he is carrying you all the way home.
–Marla Shaw O’Neill
Habakkuk 3:17-19 New Living Translation (NLT)
Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vines; even though the olive crop fails, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet I will rejoice in the Lord! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation! The Sovereign Lord is my strength! He makes me as surefooted as a deer, able to tread upon the heights.
