Make God’s Voice the Loudest Voice you Hear

Being a woman of some years, I’ve learned a few lessons that I think may be helpful to you.

Here’s one I’d like to share. I received a miracle yesterday at my place of worship, “Church.” Let me just say this first. Times certainly are different, from when I was growing up, so my perspective will be a little different from “society’s views” in today’s world.

Saying that, let me begin.

I know what it is to grow up in a broken, dysfunctional home and from the time I was two-and-a-half years old, to age nine I didn’t know the security or love of a ‘daddy.’ My parents divorced and my dad moved away. I’m not condemning my parents. I’ve dealt with all that many years ago and I love them dearly, they did the best they could in what they knew.

When I was nine, my mom remarried and for 42 years I called my step-dad, ‘Dad.’ He did the best he could and tried hard to give us a good life. Functional somewhat…secure…and we had structure. He took on a lot, taking a wife and her three children, instant family. It wasn’t easy and for that I applaud him and I love him.

Without going through all the good, the bad and the ugly of life, let me just say, everyone, has “stuff” they have to deal with, but for the most part I think I’ve dealt with most of the junk I experienced but it has taken the help of God and lots of prayer. I’ve forgiven, and let go of lots and lots of heartache. But yesterday as I sat and listened to my pastor bring a message that was straight from God’s lips to our hearts…I wept…it was all I could do, not to totally break down…but my weeping was for the realization that I have a daddy…someone who loves me in spite of all my mess-up’s…who has seen me struggle and make so many wrong decisions and caused much disappointment but He loves me anyway and forgives me and holds none of it against me and he doesn’t even remember it…I felt like I could never have my mom, or, my dad’s approval but yesterday through my Pastor, God said, “I am proud of you…” Oh how I cried…thinking about how for years the enemy’s voice in my head was so loud I could barely hear God’s voice…but yesterday Pastor Scott brought a message that has changed my life…because of God speaking through him…I could hear my Daddy God saying…loud and clear… “I am not angry with you.” Since my mom’s death, I haven’t had the assurance of knowing she was not angry with me, until yesterday. I believe that one reason I was so sick recently, is because I listened and kept believing the enemy’s lies…but yesterday healing began…God said, “I believe in you…I know you fully and I still chose you and called you.” I’ve tried to live up to what I thought would make my mom proud. Even though I have a personal relationship with the LORD, part of me, even at this age, I constantly longed for her approval. “See Mom, I’m living my life for God. I’m going to Church, I’m writing for God, I’m on the prayer team, I study God’s word and I’m witnessing for Jesus. Aren’t you proud of me, Mom?” I wanted to please God, but I was miserable and hurting. I mean don’t get me wrong I love the Lord with all my heart and serving him is want I long to do. But I couldn’t find His Joy in my heart because without really knowing it, I was trying to please my mom.

Then God said, through Pastor Scott, “Thank you for serving me…”

He said, “You are more valuable to me than your ministry…Don’t compare yourself to others because I don’t. Don’t give up on yourself; I haven’t given up on you.”

He said, “I don’t see you like you see yourself. You don’t feel about yourself what I feel about you. I have so much more for you than you are currently experiencing. You are my child not my slave.”

I think sometimes in ministry people begin to just go through the motions of serving and it begins to feel like work and the love and blessing of doing for God becomes a burden and a chore. We listen to the enemy’s voice and it becomes louder than God’s voice.

God said, “Enjoy my love and acceptance. Don’t try to earn what you already have. I will help you carry those burdens if you will give them to me. I have your future in my hands so enjoy your present.”

But as I sat there listening to God say these things all I could think about was how I’ve messed up in life, hurt people, not meaning too but the enemy’s words were loud and accuse me every single day. Words of death and destruction, because that is what he does. The more I listened to the enemy, the sicker I became…for months now the Holy Spirit has been saying to me, “Read my word.” Each time I would ask God to help me he’d say, “Read my word.” Not demanding, but gently he’d say, “Read my word.” And then yesterday through a message Pastor Scott gave because of a time in his life, God spoke these things to him and he said it was for us too…God said, “You are special to me…”

I was set free…free from the past…free from wanting my mom’s approval…free from the grips of Satan’s lies…and accusations…

Pastor Scott said, “Make God’s voice the loudest voice in your head…”

I understood then why God had been telling me to read his word…His word dispels the darkness, it sets those in bondage free, it heals diseases and gives the body, mind and soul new life…when we are reading God’s word it shuts the mouths of all other voices and fills us with the truth and not lies…but we have to listen…Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the WORD OF GOD!!

If you are hurting and afraid, if you are wondering in a desert and doubts and confusion and sickness and worry has you bound up in knots and shackles…Read and hear what God, your daddy is saying to you today.

Read:

Ephesians 3:18

Revelation 19:7-9/2 Timothy 4:7

Luke 15:2 Corinthians 5:19

Philippians 1:6

Ephesians 1:4

Revelation 19:6-8 and Revelation 22:12

Luke 15

I Corinthians 12

Romans 8:38/Philippians 1:6

Ephesians 5:27/Colossians 1:22/I Samuel 16:7

Ephesians 3:20/Galatians 5:22/Romans 8:11

John 12

Matthew 11:28/Matthew 28:20

Matthew 6:25-34/Romans 12:1-2

Luke 12:7/Psalm 139:13-18

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE, YOU ARE MY CHILD, YOU MAKE ME HAPPY, AND YOU ARE SPECIAL TO ME! 

LOVE,

YOUR DADDY GOD!!! 

John 3:16 

~M.S. O’Neill December 11, 2017

Listen to the message here.