Go

So I had this conflicting conversation with God. He presented something to me and I felt in my spirit that it was a wonderful idea and I’d like to be part of making a difference in someone’s life. But then I started second guessing myself. I’m too old. I’m not qualified. I am an introvert, mostly. I don’t know what to expect. I have health issues. I’m a little a feared…I begin looking at all the reasons why I can’t do it. I’d pray and think. Pray and think. “OK, I’ll go. I’ll just take tiny steps toward doing this and see how it goes.” Then anxiety set in and the closer it came to fulfilling the task, I wanted to back out, but I’m torn. Let me just say that if you’re in anxiety you’re in sin, and sin, will block faith. Without faith it is impossible to please God. So I repented and asked God to help me and even if I’m a little afraid I’ll do it anyway. He said, with His help, I Can Do All Things…because He, will give me strength!

The conversation continued in my head… “God I’m not hearing you clearly, do I do this or not? Holy Spirit, please help me. Do you want me to go or not? Is this you or is it me? Is it the devil hindering me? I don’t know what to do? So I get in my car and drive. I’m driving, listening to my favorite Christian radio station and a song begins to play. I sing along with it but I’m not really aware of the words…all of a sudden I realize I’m singing…I am not alone, I am not alone, You will go before me, You will never leave me…(Kari Jobe)

“You will GO before me.” I see this car in front of me, and on the rear window is a sticker with the word ‘GO’… I start praising God and tears spring to my eyes as I say out loud… “That’s God talking!”

Now let me just say this, I don’t believe in omens and I don’t believe in coincidence. I do believe there are reasons and purposes for everything that happens in a believer’s life.

I begin praising the Lord and thanking him for direction. I understand that he’s saying, ‘Go!’ And because I have his direction now, and I’m faced with this upcoming challenge that is about to happen, I am not shaken.

Here I am, in a place I’ve never driven before…I have directions from Google printed out on paper…but still I take a wrong turn and have no idea where I am and my GPS on my phone has stopped working. I pull into a parking spot and call Bob. I get back on the road. The paper with my directions say to turn left; but Bob said I need to turn right. I am in the wrong lane and I can’t get over. I tell him I’ve got this and I hang up. When I get to the street that I think is correct, I see that the streets are all torn up and under construction. I drive down a one way street the wrong way, and the place I’m looking for is north, not south, I am in the wrong place….Let me tell you right now if I had not gotten that direction from the Lord I would have said, “Forget this I’m not doing this, I’m going home.” But…I had heard from God and I knew I was to Go.

I drove over the torn up road, full of big holes, and I managed to get to the correct road. Now I’m heading in the right direction. Talking to Bob from my cell phone he led me to where I needed to be and I got there just in time to meet who I needed to meet and to sign up for what I needed to sign up for. Let me also say that when you do get to your destination and you see a familiar face, it sure does feel good. Finally that part of the process was finished but there are still unknowns to be conquered. Although I now, know, that God is in this. I have faith in Him and know, without a doubt, he will lead and guide me the rest of the way.

If you are facing uncertainty, and you don’t have clear direction and you find yourself on the wrong road, going the wrong way, turn on your radio, do not be afraid, don’t give up…and ask the Holy Spirit to help you. He is the best GPS you will ever need…he promises to be with you, in you and he will never leave you.

Oh, and as I was leaving, I heard the song…No turning back…LOL!

~Marla Shaw O’Neill June 11, 2018

No Turning Back

Brandon Heath

I have decided
I called out his name
I’m following Jesus now and
He knows the way
I made up my mind
I leave it behind

No turning back
No turning back
I’m moving on
Not looking back
I’m giving him
All that I have
No turning back
No turning back

Though I may wander
I am not lost
So many distractions
But I, I look to the cross
I made up my mind
I leave it behind

No turning back
No turning back
I’m moving on
Not looking back
I’m giving him
All that I have
No turning back
No turning back

You want to come with me
He loves you the same
Oh, won’t you come with me?
(Oh, won’t you come with me?)
Just call out his name
(Just call out his name) Songwriters: Brandon Heath Knell / David Leonard / Leslie Jordan

Genesis 12:1 New International Version (NIV) The Lord had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you.

Mark 16:15 New International Version (NIV) He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.

Genesis 24:58 New International Version (NIV) So they called Rebekah and asked her, “Will you go with this man?” “I will go,” she said.

Ruth 1:16-17 New International Version (NIV) But Ruth replied, “Don’t urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay.

Matthew 21:2 New International Version (NIV) saying to them, “Go to the village ahead of you, and at once you will find a donkey tied there, with her colt by her. Untie them and bring them to me.