You may ask me, “How I know what I know.”
How do you know what to do…?
When life smashes your deepest, most precious, dreams?
When all you want to do is dig a whole, crawl inside, and scream?
How do you know what will be?
When the thing you wanted most is lost, shattered and no one, or nothing…
Can console you, in your lost dreams?
You stand in a desolate, deserted place…numb defeated, knocked off your feet…
How do you know? How will you ever feel the same, when all around you, everything is totally and completely insane…?
I can’t tell you that life won’t hurt. I can’t tell you the why of things. I can’t give you all the answers you seek…but this one thing I know….
God, is, love! He does not change!
We must not grow bitter or let anger seize our hearts or rearrange, what we do not understand.
How can you say, God is love? When the most horrible thing in the world strikes at your heart and leaves you crumpled and wasted inside…?
I can’t tell you that…but I can tell you I’ve been there. I’ve been to hell and back again…I’ve felt the despair of hopelessness, cried endless tears like grains of sand…covering my pillow, there was no end…I’ve seen death and disease…take lives I’ve loved…the only help came from God above…
God reached out and took my hand and led me to a peaceful land…a peace that no one understands, unless you’ve been there…
Cry, my darling, cry. For tears are bottled in God’s special place, where love and truth gives amazing grace…to fill the heart that’s broken to be mended when we look full in God’s gracious face…
Grace is the only thing that saved me, when no answers of why, came…
Grace, unmerited favor, God gives to his children in this place….
Grace is the balm that soothes the heart, broken, and crushed…
When life is full of horror and we can’t even speak…
God’s strength becomes our back-bone when we are lost and weak…
Let His Holy Spirit carry you at this time…
All I know is that God is in control and by faith he will make us strong and whole…
The choices we make will either carry us to victory or carry us to defeat…
All I know is… God is the giver of life…Trust that He knows best, this life is sometimes bitter and sometimes it is sweet…
God is the answer, even when we face defeat…
And if his answer is to carry us home…accept it with grace for you are not alone!
Marla Shaw O’Neill – March 7, 2017
